Lost in a world of desperation.

I feel lost; like I have no clue what I'm supposed to be doing; I feel numb to everything; feelings, thoughts, etc. I have no clue what to do. I feel like God can't forgive me and doesn't want me. I don't have anyone I can trust that I can talk to on a regular basis. And& that sucks big time! This CD Brent gave me has helped a lot! He's so generous. I just wish I had someone like him as a bestfriend. Thats all for now.