I'm not perfect, but I keep trying.

Part of me wants to hate you and never see you again...part of me doesn't want to believe that you care about me because I don't want to let myself believe that and then get hurt when you leave, or just stop caring. Part of me wants to cry because I'm sorry, because you don't deserve for me to want to hate you. You haven't lied to me before, Why won't I believe you now? I can't really understand all of this. I feel bad because I don't know what to do. I want to believe you. I really do. But I don't want to open up just to get another wound when the old ones aren't even healed yet.